Getting down but not dirty

You know what got me down today?

I was tired of waiting. For what? Well, everything. I was tired of waiting for school to be out, tired of waiting for God to send the perfect someone to complete my earthly life, tired of waiting for Jesus to come back...tired of being awake to the fact that I was tired of the other things. How depressing!

Then a dear friend pointed out that perhaps this was God testing me and trying help me see that He is all I need to be happy. I got to thinking. When I become happy in Him, it is then that I can afford to have things on this earth that would increase my happiness. However, without happiness in God, it only becomes a selfish happiness. This kind of happiness will die with whatever it is attached to. However, if I have true happiness in God, then if anything in this world will bring happiness, it will only increase my happiness in God instead of being selfish and of this world. Just thinking about it made me happy.

Then a verse came to mind. Hebrews 11:1 is one of my favorite verses and is underlined in my Bible. It reads,

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

The only thing I really hope for is a greater love for God. God is love and if I hope for love of God, then I must conclude that I have faith in God. If I have faith in God, he will provide everything I need and not what I want. Sure I want to be happy in this life, but only true happiness comes from the Father. Anything else is selfish and must be put aside.

Yeah, my day got better.

Wait a second, I got that on wrong.

Ever been sitting down or taking a walk, or anything else you do on a regular basis and suddenly realized that you had it wrong? I'm not talking about trivial things such as what kind of car to buy or any other material things. No, I'm talking about life-changing decisions, a caliber so huge that one misstep could send your whole life in a downward, one-way spiral.

Well, I won't go into much details, but I was there recently.

Sometimes, people can say mean and hurtful things and others can just be generally annoying. A combination of the two in one person is a recipe for disaster. Add in that a person who has anger management problems and you get one person who does just what they please, and me sitting in the corner fuming.

And the process continues. Irritation turns into anger, which turns into words, which turns into full blown hatred. Hatred for a person who never did anything but be themselves and try to live life. Just like I'm trying to do. But as a Christian, I'm not called to hate. I'm called to love, as a dear friend was good enough to point out. So, now I'm trying to undo everything I've done to myself by hating this person.

I can't do it alone. Please pray.

Whew...welcome back? Oh dear....

So, I noticed that I haven't posted anything in a while...been really busy with college and trying to make grades that will keep my scholarship. Harder than I thought, it is.

But anyway, what I wanted to say here is that something that really ticks me off (here we go again...sigh) is people who get all uptight about an issue that doesn't really matter. They whine and complain until people finally give up and let them win and then they still whine and complain, expecting us to do more, to give more, to bend the rules more, to bow at their feet and proclaim them the gods of the earth. Heh, if I know my fellow humans, they still wouldn't be happy with that.

I guess I wonder why people can't be more content with what they have. Matthew 6:26 has been accused of saying,

Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? 27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? 28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: 29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

Verse 34 concludes with this message:

Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

I read this and said, "Wow!" THIS is why people complain all the time. They are constantly worried about tomorrow or what's going to happen here or there or where..whatever. If people are so focus on themselves so much that they can't even see the blessings in front of them, then they are going to complain. I'm not predicting this, I'm stating it as a fact.

And speaking of facts, people who get into silly arguments about nothing often times do so because they don't know the facts of their subject. Have you ever noticed that? Both side think they are right, which automatically makes them both wrong. Funny how that works.

And another thing, I have heard rumors that the world will "end" when the Mayan calendar runs out. Guess what? When your calendar runs out, you. Make. A. New. One........*gasp* Whaddya know? So, peace out and see ya in 2013??? (Yeah, there's a Bible verse for this one, too. I'm just too lazy to put it up. Try Ecclesiastes 9:12)

Lol.